I am disturbed by the missing piece in me. I am out of ideas to make myself okay like I promised. I feel like am deeply wounded by the piece that has been cut out of me. I feel speechless and out of words by the sadness that is filling me. I miss you so much that makes my breathing hard. I should be okay in each passing day or so I thought I would be but I missed you more that make things harder for me. I can’t express myself, I just feel the sadness flowing in. In my dreams you are with me, moving around me, touching me and speaking softly like the way I wanted. But I cannot close my eyes and live in the dreams in all day long, I have to open my eyes and find you gone and feel the missing piece. Sometimes I wish I don’t wake up from sleep because waking up is finding you are not there. I just wanted to say that I miss you so much please don’t hold it against me, I am trying so hard not to feel this way but I just can’t, it is just the way I feel. I am wishing that someday you give back the missing piece in me. You are my missing piece.